My Life is hopeless what can I do?


Written on July 26, 2009 – 7:53 pm | by Drug Abuse Help

Ok I am almost 27 years old WHAT THE HECK CAN I DO. I have been diagnosed with a 60% blindness since I was born. I have no family I have a child and I have a fience who is blind but can see quite a bit more than I. She has done nothing but bring me down. We have been together for10 years, because my mother pretty much forced me out of the house when I was 17 so that she could keep her man. So basically I had to move out and get a subsidized apartment where I have lived for years. The mother of my child sleeps until atleast 3 everyday even if she is happy or goes to bed at for example 9 at night. We have done everything to fix this, therapy, iron pills, and so on. she is mentally abusive and I have failed out of college for this 7 times it has taken 6 years to get half way through an associates degree in computer programming. What the hell is really going on I ask, I have been a super positive person my entire life and I am lost now. I am not that good looking so the chances of me getting a super active and decent girl is out of the question especially when you add the fact that I am blind and unsuccessful. I live off of 5 hundred dollars a month and always have been this way. I have lost tons of scholarships because of my mental anguish. if I leave her she will either commit suicide or I will only be able to see my daughter 1 day a month because I cannot drive I probably wouldn’t even be able to see her that much even. The bus doesn’t run very well where she lives and it runs ver unfrequent. She blames it all on me and is crazy I have dug my self a shit hole what can I do. COUNSELING been there done that, drugs tried it don’t work, meditation tried it, spirituality tried it, tapping into my higher self done it, I have lost all hope and nothing matters to me anymore. This woman has only helped clean house 3 tims in like 9 years. she only nags and gripes over stupid shit. SHE IS LUNYYYY. It should be a crime to be this way. It’s all from mental abuse from her mother but she her self denies it. IT is WAY BEOND ALL THIS BUT I JUST CANNOT USE THAT MANY WORDS in this box.

HEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLPPPPP
WHAT CAN I DO

Abandon my KID and end up on Montel in 20 years
man
The thing that makes it hopeless is that I have left literally 6 times for 6 months at a time one time for almost a year and another time for another 6 months and then another time for a day and another time for a few days and so on. The problem is that she shows love and reals me back in and then flips out and leaves me taking care of the kid by my self as well as going to school and doing hours and hours of homework with no sleep at all. But after a while of living under a bridge and homeless I can’t take it. See my problem is that taking the bus is unreliable in anything I do an I don’t have any friends and I have no where to go except a homeless shelter and I have already been there. It is scary for a blind kid there. and I don’t look blind so no one will help me. I am also on section 8 and my credit is bad from getting kicked out so many times by her and not being able to pay my credit cards off. It takes atleast a year to get into another apt. and I can’t live withherthat

One Response to “My Life is hopeless what can I do?”

  1. K. Victor J. said:

    Jul 27, 09 at 11:46 am

    First, I must endorse the POPEYE CONCEPT, “I AM WHAT I AM.” I have recently abandoned a situation with a complaining woman myself. I am not blind but do have visual deficits due to post traumatic brain injury. I am also involved with self help since I have a history of substance abuse and self medicating to override discomfort. For me, maintaining any negative connection with anyone could never be feasible. I due not have any children but was in a Step Father Type position for a while. All I can say is that since it was my intention to eventually become a C.A.S.A.C., holding on to any policies of detriment could only be deemed as lunacy. You may only need a demonstration of courage working for you. It helps to know that courage has nothing to do with a lack of fear. In fact, without fear there could be no courage. Best Best Best Wishes!

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