Talking about abuse and so forth>> I know I talk about this alot it had an impact on my life but sometimes I?
Written on October 26, 2009 – 1:28 pm | by Drug Abuse Help
wonder, should these thoughts still effect me and did she feel her reasons was jusiceable.
I sometimes would love to know why my grandmother hated me so.. Honestly the worst thing she ever said to me that hurt my heart till this day was….Let me explain my grandmother was the meanest I can see it now, but at times she was nice that’s how she hurted me for years(her nice was I guess when she was high) Anyway I was like 7 or 8 and my mother never really talked to me or showed me love and affection also made me feel unwanted at times she’ll tell me to get out the room when she come around…she even told me she wish she just had boys..I did’nt mention this to my grandma she wouldnt care even though she was my gurardian at the time… I ASK MY GRANDMA to ask my mother why she doesnt LOVE ME? my grandmother ask me to do it myself…I was so hurt, I knew if I would ask my mother I would of got a beaten…So I lived my years of life NEVER KNOWING…she was killed when I was 14 and I didn’t cry at her funeral because I knew I always loved my mother, I was scared to talk to her…. so she died w/o me knowing how she really felt about me
When I became an adult my grandmother and I was talking even though we never had conversation, it was like she was always trying to run away just get up and start cleaning or going to the bathroom (Im following behind her) trying to talk to her.. I asked her that question years later WHY DID MY MOTHER TREAT ME SO BAD….her respond was look where she at and look where you at–mind you my mother died tragically(but I had love for her) why would my grandmother hurt me with the words. Why did she hate me and my mom hate me…
Shell put me in mental hospital make up lies I swear make up lies so she can take drugs. She stole from me countless times DID THE EVILEST THINK TO ME of course I hurted all these years.. BUT NOTHING HURTED ME IN THIS WORLD MORE > WHEN I ASKED HER TO ASK MY MOTHER WHY SHE DONT LOVE ME….naybe I would have had a better understand about ppl and life…even when my grandma told me look where she at and look wher you at, not even the trifiling things you would do to your worst enemy.. that hurted me a 7.
