I am drug abusing I want to stop but if I do I’ll go insane?


Written on July 11, 2009 – 2:57 pm | by Drug Abuse Help

For a few months I’ve been taking clonazepam (klonopin) more pills than I should. I dont no if it’s some kina poison effect or annything, but I get drowsiness, dizziness, and lightheaded. So times I’m soo wasted that I can’t even stand still. But if I stop I’ll go back to cutting my wrists again. so what should I do? I don’t want to die I’m only 17. How can I stop? I JUST FREAKIN CANT! HELP HELP HELP!
chasfrk ur soo right bro, life is good it’s just me who sucks. no point in living when theres no meaning
actually mama I got a therapist, I was already send to hospital, and if I told my therapist they will send me there again. So I rather not tell annyone who has athourity.

12 Responses to “I am drug abusing I want to stop but if I do I’ll go insane?”

  1. fangtaiyang said:

    Jul 11, 09 at 4:17 am

    Tell the doctor that is prescribing your medication what you are doing and what you are feeling. You need professional help, not yahoo answers. You need a shrink that uses therapy, not chemicals to help you choose more positive behaviors.

  2. enigmatic1844 said:

    Jul 11, 09 at 4:43 am

    Listen–one drug abuser to another–one wrist slasher to another. You need be care full with the Klonopin it has a long half life–this means it builds up in your body. I take 1mg of this med–that’s a full dose.

    OK more important. You have options, lots of them. There are so many different medications available out there. Talk with your doctor-you don’t have to say "I’m abusing the benzo–just tell him/her that this med isn’t working fully AND its not or you wouldn’t be abusing–see?

    Doctors are screw ups–don’t think they know all. I think and I’ve been in the game of staying alive and out of jail (from drug abuse) for a long time, you should be taking a antidepressant (SSRI) and probably still a benzo but maybe not Klonopin.

    Talk to your Dr. you know the current path can only last for a time–so get help now before it gets worse and it will get worse if you don’t change course.

    God bless and good luck.

  3. magicgee said:

    Jul 11, 09 at 6:10 am

    Honey, first thing you need to do is get some help from a family member or attend an NA meeting near you and get a sponsor that can help you. If it’s that bad you may need in pacient treatment you need to reach out and get some help these people will help and not judge how much and how offen you use-

    Good luck and god bless and stay strong

  4. Glad_I_am__Me said:

    Jul 11, 09 at 9:11 am

    Clonazepam is mainly used for anxiety and is an addictive medication. It is numbing you so you are not worried about the fact that you feel emotionless. When you feel emotionless you cut yourself because you want to be "normal" and feel something. I am pretty sure you have a "dark secret" that you feel makes you dirty somehow. It doesn’t. When was the last time you cut yourself? What thoughts were running through your mind at the time? If you change your thinking(which takes effort), you can have self control and no need for the medication. At your age, they should be tryting alternate therapies instead of medication. Please get back to me and I WILL HELP YOU!

  5. Dilip_SDIPANKAR said:

    Jul 11, 09 at 10:25 am

    Read these carefully & do it very sincerely :

    When mother Nature has provided us with such a simple and easy treatment to cure diseases and even to avoid them we all must follow the instructions given by her. These Therapies only help Nature to cure us. Let us not ignore Nature in our mad pursuit of science. THIS NATURE’S ‘DO IT YOURSELF’ ACUPRESSURE THERAPY ITSLEF IS A SCIENCE AND NOT A MATTER OF BELIEF. Try this Therapy sincerely and regularly for at least 15 days and observe its wonderful and amazing result.

    Depression, Tension & Increase of will-power.

    Increasing the will-power : Our mind has a great effect on these glands. For example, continuous fear damages the Pituitary gland and makes one timid. Similarly,tension and worry disturb the Pineal gland and so leads to high B.P. and as Pineal gland controls other glands it also disturbs other glands and digestive system. In modern times, strees-tension or worry-fear have increased and they often disturb these endocrine glands. If these endocrine glands are not treated immediately, it might lead to malfunctioning of other glands of the body. As these glands are interrelated, whenever one gland is disturbed, the other glands also get disturbed. So, when you press on the points of these endocrine glands you will feel pain on points of more than one gland especially in case of chronic diseases. Therefore, it is very improtant to give Acupressure treatment on all the endocrine glands and keep them under proper control.

    These glands also control the mind (the will-power). So in order to get rid of bad habits like smoking, drinking, drug addiction or even overeating, it is extremely necessary to give treatment on all endocrine glands for at least, fifteen days. Because, these people lack the necessary will-power to give up bad habits, they often break their vows to stop such bad habits and so they are considered unreliable. However, a treatment of fifteen days will give them necessary will-power to stop these bad habits after that. And they will be free from the withdrawal symptoms of stopping these bad habits.

    Nervous tension : In the modern days because of fast life and loss of contentment,nervous tension keeps on building up increasingly, tending to damage our mind and health.

    How to find out : Ask the patient to lie down on the back and ask some one to press on the base of the middle toe in both the legs. If there is a hurting sensation,it means nervous tension. If the hurting is unbearable, it means that the person is on the verge of collapse and needs immediate attention.

    C U R E : (1) While the patient is lying on the back, bend all the toes of both legs, backward. It may hurt but give little more pressure and bend them as much as possible. Repeat this three times a day till the tension is removed.

    (2) Clasp your hands tightly interlocking the fingers. Then with left hand fingers press on the back of the right hand and then with right hand fingers, press on the back of the left hand. repeat for about 1 to 2 minutes, 3 to 4 times a day.

    (3) Insomnia : The above mentioned treatment can be taken for 5 to 12 minutes at night in bed to ensure good sleep and cure insomnia.

    (4) Take 2 glasess of gold/silver/copper charged water reduced from 8 glasses of water daily.

    (5) Kali Phos 1 m (a Biochemic medicine) : Take 8 pills in the eveining between 8 to 9 p.m. for 10 days, then once a week. After 10 days Kali Phos 12 x 4+4 pills every day. Complete course is of 45 days.

  6. words_that_live_on said:

    Jul 11, 09 at 11:20 am

    God knew that having these two brain lobes that are so sensitive and powerful that some humans will fail to adjust to life. Given that all people are not the same even in one family it is easy to see that some failures will develop. The brain has ways to self destruct by making unbalanced chemicals and stuff. Now buck up man… we all went where you are today. You can live well again. It just it will be very different. You know you are different . You need to find others who are like yourself and have been born again. Trust me. You will never become a winner-player. Our group would be as big as 25% but too many males are doing suicide.

  7. Always_ready_for_anything said:

    Jul 11, 09 at 12:10 pm

    Well the best thing to do, just find a hobby to keep yourself busy and not think about it because onw of these days you might accidently may take a lethal dose and then you won’t be able to do nothing but get buried. Just find a hobby and don’t worry and wing off the medicine slowly not all at once. Need to chat with someone just IM me anytime.

  8. _Po3tic_Mi_tr3___ said:

    Jul 11, 09 at 4:55 pm

    You’ve already made a huge step kiddo…

    I my self have overcome a lot especially getting away from shooting up, you can do it too

    Talk to you counsler at school, your parents, friends and such but, if they are adding to or are the cause of why you’re this way, call a hot line hon, it worked for me and they can send you in the right direction…

    I’ll be thinking of you (just like I said in my other question kk? Promise

    All the Very Best, Shad AKA Poetic Mistress @)~>~

  9. chaskfrazier said:

    Jul 11, 09 at 5:12 pm

    Your screen name is "I need a life"…you have one and you’re throwing it away. You’re only 17 and all you can see are the bad things that are going on in your life? Trust me, there are people who have much worse things happening to them than you. I just watched a man walk out of prison after 18 year of being accused of a rape that he didn’t commit. He kept himself together all that time.

    Life is what you make of it. If you choose to fck it up, you’re wasting it. You don’t need a life you need to start living the one you have. IT’S UP TO YOU! I’m sorry if this truth hurts your feelings…but your ignorance is hurting you more.

  10. _A_ said:

    Jul 11, 09 at 5:49 pm

    i think you’re really lonely and you need to start having real friends who can help you out and show you what REAL living is all about. find help soon love , reach out to people. drugs is never an option and though its hard for you to believe it i am sure someone cares for you if you only let them. why would you want to cut your wrist anyway? what good would it ever bring to yourself? find love now and stop abusing drugs or you will end up being a junkie with nothing to live for. dont do it…please.

  11. Mama07 said:

    Jul 11, 09 at 9:30 pm

    The only thing that I can tell you to do try to go talk to somebody about your situation. Then whoever that person you talk to may be able to help you out.

  12. darkcloud said:

    Jul 11, 09 at 11:14 pm

    too bad you ever altered your chemistry , but life goes on ,, try going insane .see if you can somehow live threw it .. TWO WEEKS is a goal ,, do two weeks of insanity , put the cutting on hold , and see if screeming could somehow see you threw a day or mabey even two , you’ll need your old friend [ Neurosis ] to come visit you for a day or two , just eat , and stay to yourself as much as possable for a day or two , go ahead and go to school but be quiet and hide yourself for a day or two ,, you won’t be yourself for these few days ,, give yourself a chance to just { eak } threw , after you have servived these days , the worst is on its way out ,, you can get help on this sight to get you threw the last of it ,, it’s not easy being free…..

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