I blackmailed him into staying with me now he hates me!!!?
Written on November 9, 2009 – 1:53 am | by Drug Abuse Help
so I was looking at this site and it had a list of things that I could relate to.
its actually quite scary, this is some of the things it had;
desperate attempts to gain attention, intense/irrational abandonment fears, lack of empathy, extreme jealousy, lying, poor impulse control, extra-marital affairs, drug/alcohol abuse, hypersexuality, ‘crazy-making’ interactions, low self-esteem, rebound relationships, passive-aggression, cognitive distortion, self-harming behaviors, eating disorders, suicidal ideation, stalking, etc.
I dont want to be this way and I understand I have a problem its just I dont know what to do. I lost my virginity when I was 16 to an older man (he was 22 and I told him I was 18) we stayed in a relationship for a while and we were both in love, but then one day he told me although he loved me it was wrong to be together because I was so young. so… I blackmailed him into staying with me, I was also angry so I acted really rude to him and made him do things for me.
the other day he said he didn’t care anymore he told me he hated me and didn’t want anything to do with me and he said he didn’t care what I did.
I really thought that he still loved me and I know that I still love him but now he is gone. I was a jerk and I hate what I did, but I couldn’t stop myself it was like I convinced myself this is what we both wanted.
I dont know what to do. I love him and I want him back.
help me, please.
